[ The guilt tears at Noctis from the inside, at the thanks he doesn't deserve, at the question he's already asked himself a hundred times since he woke up in this same bed days ago with Ignis sitting there at his bedside, a constant in his life after everything. Even like this. Even scarred up, and hopeless. Even blind. Family, and home, and everything taken away from him... Cooking... driving... reading the newspaper... And he still wants to be with him?
It's painful for Noctis. Painful in ways he can't even imagine for Ignis. He can't even start to think about what's right for him, for either of them. It doesn't matter. He nods and leans up, doesn't hesitate, and kisses Ignis' mouth himself. Like Ignis even had to ask, like there will ever be a time when Noctis wouldn't want to kiss him. He could be dead, he could be dying— he kind of feels like he is. And he'd still always just want Ignis closer to him, as close as they can get. The kiss isn't a gentle acquaintance with Ignis' lips like it probably should be, for how much pain he must be in. It's desperate and needy, everything about Ignis' mouth is familiar, even after all this time, except for that scar on his lip.
He ended up like this, but he could've died, too. He could be gone, not just in another country, but gone forever, and what would Noctis do without him? ]
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Date: 2019-07-31 04:18 pm (UTC)It's painful for Noctis. Painful in ways he can't even imagine for Ignis. He can't even start to think about what's right for him, for either of them. It doesn't matter. He nods and leans up, doesn't hesitate, and kisses Ignis' mouth himself. Like Ignis even had to ask, like there will ever be a time when Noctis wouldn't want to kiss him. He could be dead, he could be dying— he kind of feels like he is. And he'd still always just want Ignis closer to him, as close as they can get. The kiss isn't a gentle acquaintance with Ignis' lips like it probably should be, for how much pain he must be in. It's desperate and needy, everything about Ignis' mouth is familiar, even after all this time, except for that scar on his lip.
He ended up like this, but he could've died, too. He could be gone, not just in another country, but gone forever, and what would Noctis do without him? ]