[ The last thing Noctis wants is an apology. Of all people to be apologizing to him... It should be the other way around. But he can't get the words out, either. Shouldn't it be easier? After almost dying, if Luna hadn't— After almost losing Ignis, too. Shouldn't he be able to just pour his heart out to him now, say everything he's feeling, everything he's always felt, everything he almost never got to say? He shouldn't make the same mistake—
But he can't. What if it makes things worse? The only reason this happened is because of him; maybe if he'd pushed Ignis away sooner, if he didn't drag any of them into this—
But he doesn't want to be alone. He doesn't want to go running after Gladio and Prompto when they're probably sick of him, too. And taking care of Ignis on top of it. Noctis shakes his head, forgetting Ignis can't see it. ]
No, it's okay. I mean, I don't mind if...
[ It's selfish to want Ignis like he does, to want to drag him to bed and lock the door and never leave it. He can't do that, shouldn't and won't ask for it. They should get the others, like Ignis said. It's probably what Ignis wants, and they'd take better care of him, anyway. But the market... It's a long way to go, and Ignis is dressed well enough, but those burn scars on his face look awful, and his hair isn't even styled... For a guy who would wear a three piece suit every day if he could get away with it... He wouldn't want to go out looking like this, would he? And if he'd wanted to go with the other guys, he would've, wouldn't he? Prompto could've stayed instead.
Noctis just doesn't know. He's got no idea what Ignis is thinking right now, can only guess and wonder how much is wishful thinking, and how much is just an excuse to stay close to him. He asks anyway, at a loss for what else to say. ]
It's... probably just easier for you to stay here, right?
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But he can't. What if it makes things worse? The only reason this happened is because of him; maybe if he'd pushed Ignis away sooner, if he didn't drag any of them into this—
But he doesn't want to be alone. He doesn't want to go running after Gladio and Prompto when they're probably sick of him, too. And taking care of Ignis on top of it. Noctis shakes his head, forgetting Ignis can't see it. ]
No, it's okay. I mean, I don't mind if...
[ It's selfish to want Ignis like he does, to want to drag him to bed and lock the door and never leave it. He can't do that, shouldn't and won't ask for it. They should get the others, like Ignis said. It's probably what Ignis wants, and they'd take better care of him, anyway. But the market... It's a long way to go, and Ignis is dressed well enough, but those burn scars on his face look awful, and his hair isn't even styled... For a guy who would wear a three piece suit every day if he could get away with it... He wouldn't want to go out looking like this, would he? And if he'd wanted to go with the other guys, he would've, wouldn't he? Prompto could've stayed instead.
Noctis just doesn't know. He's got no idea what Ignis is thinking right now, can only guess and wonder how much is wishful thinking, and how much is just an excuse to stay close to him. He asks anyway, at a loss for what else to say. ]
It's... probably just easier for you to stay here, right?